I got canned the other day. From what I can tell it’s from a combination of me being honest about screwing things up, having a new guy and a supposedly ex druggy with severe A.D.H.D. teaching me my job, and being blamed for stuff I didn’t do. Suzy hasn’t talked to me really since that happened, which I assume is cause she’s been busy, but it still kinda sucks cause I want someone to talk to.
I’ve been stayin over at HB’s since she asked me to after I got fired and all. I normally don’t like staying over there because she NEVER has toilet paper, which seems doubly odd, but she showers like 30 times a day, so I guess Tom just doesn’t care about havin a poopy butt.
Last night I was over there and I slept for 13 hours on a bed we gave her recently for Dex to sleep in. I woke up feeling heavy and tired but I guess I needed it. Getting canned was kindof an icing on a much bigger cake of crap I’ve been keeping to myself. It leads me to this conclusion: I need to be more honest about my emotions and opinions and stop being afraid of them. I’ve seen a saying recently that goes something like, “be honest, your opinion won’t matter to the people who count and dont count to the people who matter”… though thinking of it I may have paraphrased that incorrectly cause that sounds way more negative, but you get my drift.
Mostly I’m afraid of being demeaned. My feelings have always been depreciated as though I were a child or a pet or something. I hate that feeling, and I already feel like my problems aren’t imortant.
Ollie Said:
on August 8, 2009 at 7:33 am
I was wondering why you were always at HB’s. :3
You need to cheer up. I think it’d probably do you good to move somewhere or go to university. To me, it seems like you need a change.
HB Said:
on August 20, 2009 at 4:25 am
I always have TP now, it was like ONE month.